Why me? Why Now? Why?

What made today different from any other? My heart was heavy , I wanted to smile but couldn't seem to muster up a real one. The sun was warm and the squirrels were making good use of the trees connecting branches. The neighbors dog came down to give me some kisses in exchange for a thorough belly rub. My gratitude list runneth over so why do I feel this way? I have a hunch it's growing pains, because we all know that after we come through something like a storm it's easier to understand. Suddenly all the signs make sense. What seemed random and out of sequence in retrospect often looks very plain and you wonder why you didn't see it. It's possible we just don't want to, remember that old saying "ignorance is bliss". Well, we all know that's a crock. But we still fall victim to it, don't we? Trying to maintain a positive attitude is key,  plus as I was reminded buy my first born a few weeks ago that nothing lasts forever. It will end and we will move on and probably won't even remember it in time. How did she get so smart so young? I'm hoping all the prayers I said today will help me get to a brighter tomorrow, and if it doesn't turn out they way I would like it to then let me handle it with grace, and be patient while I wait till my answers come. Until then I want to be a good student and learn this lesson well, I have a Great Teacher! He has all the qualities I hope to possess.